My Journey With Cancer - Part 17

May 10, 2018 – If I Ever Stray

I have a date for my CT scan. After gaining insurance approval, that date is a week from tomorrow on May 18^th. It will be good to get the results and see what has been going on. This week’s round of chemo has been the worst yet. I keep plugging along with the help of  God and those who love  me.

On another sort of related note, while  listening to the Deep Tracks station on SiriusXM today I ran across a singer that I have no idea how I missed. His name is Frank Turner and a couple of his songs were quite powerful.  One of them was entitled  "If I Ever Stray." You owe it to yourself to listen to it on YouTube. The lyrics are below. They speak in many ways  to what I feel some days. Listening will be encouraging.

If I Ever Stray

Forgive me, someone, for I have sinned
And I know not where I should begin
And some days it feels like you just can't win
No matter what you do or say.

Things didn't kill me but I don't feel stronger
Life is short but it feels much longer
When you've lost that fight, yeah, you've lost that hunger
To pull yourself through the day.

But if ever I stray from the path I follow
Take me down to the English Channel
Throw me in where the water is shallow
And then drag me on back to shore

'Cause love is free and life is cheap
And as long as I've got me a place to sleep
Some clothes on my back and some food to eat
Then I can't ask for anything more

So come on everybody sing it one, two, three, four

We all have secrets that we hold inside
The worst little things that you never confide
And the worst one of all that you just can't hide
Is that you're never quite as strong as you sound

So I'm sorry baby, for the times I've hurt you
Sorry friends, for the times I desert you
Most days it feels like I don't deserve you
And I wonder that you're all still around

So if ever I stray from the path I follow
Take me down to the English Channel
Throw me in where the water is shallow
And then drag me on back to shore

'Cause love is free and life is cheap
As long as I've got me a place to sleep
Some clothes on my back and some food to eat
Then I can't ask for anything more

So come on, everybody, sing it one, two, three, four

Come on and join me in the water
Swim for hope
Sometimes it's hard to remember
I couldn't do this on my own

If ever I stray from the path I follow
Take me down to the English Channel
Throw me in where the water is shallow
And then drag me on back to shore!

'Cause love is free and life is cheap
As long as I've got me a place to sleep
Some clothes on my back and some food to eat
I can't ask for anything more

I can't ask for anything more

The path I chose isn't straight and narrow
It wanders 'round like a drunken fellow
Some days it's hard for me to follow
But if you've got my back I'll go on.
If you've got my back I'll go on.

               ~ Francis Edward Turner / Nigel Powell